My name is Zachary. My title is Slave.
I am a slave to many things. My master is life. My mistress: mistreatment.
A few months ago I was doing work for The Boise Venue. I got the chance to work with a great band by the name of Sleeping Giant. This band opened my eyes to a whole new way to share with someone. I am very personal when it comes to my feelings about religion or belief, this is also how I feel everyone should be. While working for SG I noticed the way the front man spoke. It reminded me of the slow, sure draw that my best friend used ever second of his life. This band spoke to me much like he would. CAN YOU FEEL THE GLORY OF GOD? I don't know if I can. It has been so long since I have felt any emotion besides betrayal and anguish. That is so far from true.
you try to silence my voice but I am still screaming out. YOU BETTER PRAY. Over the last few months I have started smoking weed. Tis is something that I had only expiriemted in the past with so I could have a valid stance on the subject. However, after some time and a lot of stress over weather or not I would have a place to sleep day to day I decided to indulge more. This has cost me a few things. 1. The complete trust of my beloved EMILY. 2. The loss of more than one friendship. 3. My friends don't find me reliable.
But now I have to say something. This is just to get it off my chest. I try very hard not to censor my speech here because I feel like if I say it here you HAVE to look for it. (NSA go fuck yourself.) But over the past 3 years I have noticed a explicit change in one of my friends. Lets give some background. 3 years ago around this time is when I was diving headfirst into music and working with it. I gathered some talented musicians and created the band The Day After. I feel I deserve to brag about this because I am truly the only person in that band that gave a shit. I wrote every lyric practiced everyday scheduled and paid for everything my self. I never made a fucking cent.
While in this band a guitarist decided to leave. During the same week a member decided to have an acoustic show at a friends house. We needed a guitarist and I invited the host to play with us. I have to say that I have never felt more confident than when this person told my that he could tell I worked my ass off to get my vocals to the point that they reached. But that was old BRANDON. Now I am sick. I am straight fucking sick of him. It has been three years. I have never met someone so fucking self centered or self absorbed. He has done things that will make him never to be trusted again. I will never go out of my way to help him or make him happy again. He wants to be on his own then he can. He is the lowest piece of shit I have ever met. He has taken ever aspect of my friendship for granted. Its like I have known him for a week. 3 fucking years. A year ago I would have told you he was my best friend. Now I tell you my heart aches that I have given so much up to him only to be mistreated and pushed aside. He gets mad that I talk shit? I get made that there is shit to talk.
Anyway, I have become absolutely upset with where I am in life. I have no true friends and it burns me to the very core that I do not talk to anyone that I have known more than a few years. Did I miss the seminar in highschool? I thought you got friends by being nice to people and treating them nicely? Turns out if you smoke weed you are cool, if you treat women like shit you are cool, if you don't give a fuck about anything around you? Yeah that makes you cool too.
I tell you this world, I swear to change for the better. This is the day. This is my last negative post. I AM NOT ALONE. Even though it does feel like that quite often I know it is not true. Roughly five months ago I met the very love of my life. OH SHIT. ANOTHER ONE RIGHT? Nah. Internet world I tell you now that this girl is defiantly the one I will be with for the rest of my life. She will always be my numero uno priority. I have never felt a need to make someone happy or safe in my life. She is mine and I am hers. I will never do anything to betray the trust she has given me. I love her more than the air in my lungs. She starts her Senior year in about 4 hours and her first day on the job. I am so very proud of my Emily. SO FUCKING PROUD. When I met her we were both fucking messes. I was drunk the first 2 weeks of hanging out with her and she was popping pills. Since then I have gained a job that I hate but I have stopped getting fucked up every second of every day. She stopped popping and I never even had to tell her to. She has forever changed me and I couldn't be happier. I want her to have the best life possible. I will do everything in my power to make that happen. I love you Emily Steele. I really truly do. You are my best friend and I intend to hold you in these arms forever.
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Monday, December 24, 2012
Eyes Wide Open
Well, what kind of curious turn of events would have me writing to myself again. It has been near a year since my last post. I can tell anyone that may partake of my rambalings misguided words that this will be a three part ramble. There will be no end to the sorrow of betrayle loss of love and friendship. If you want a happy story stay away from my page. I will do my best to make you cry for I have lost the ability to lose my self in an emotional tear fest.
First off. It is Christmas eve. I am in the same spot I was a year ago this time. It eats me from the inside out. I don't know what to do with my life nor what I should be doing. A lot of things have happend in the past year to make this one of the "wonder years." By wonder years, I mean that it is a wonder I made it through. I am nearly 20 and have nothing to show for it. I have no special skills. I find my self physically neglected. While this can be confusing I mean that I have neglected my body to the point of disrepair. I would love to report something good has happened in the past year, however that is not the case.
I moved away from my parents in Feburary. In doing so I had to tell a friend he could no longer crash with me. This was not an issue for I was quite tired of my generosity being taken as weakness. I will go to the end of the Earth for someone once they earn my respect and friendship, however, I can only take so much before I become an emotional wreck and lose control of my tounge. Fastforward through melodramatic issues with that friend. I then moved in with my grandmother. Not a big deal she has always treated me right. While living with her I managed to gain employment for 4 months at a time twice. Both employers treated me very poorly and have made it so I have a huge anxiety attack just looking for a job online. CURSE THIS WEAKNESS. I have nervous breakdowns at the drop of a hat now. My life is a downward spiral.
PART I
I hate my current "best-friend." Yes it is the same friend that pushed me to the utter brink a year ago. My need to be accepted outwaeighs my need to stand up to him and tell me that he is a selfish bum who needs to stop feeling like he is entitled to every little thing he needs. JC you have mistreated me and hurt me. I play Leauge with this man nearly every chance I get. I love the game but the very way he talks to me enrages me. I have no problem having a conversation with someone and telling them that they hurt me or that I feel mistreated. If you personally know me you know I am quite open with my feelings. But JC... I gave you a home when no one else would. I picked you up when you called me crying. You are not the strongest of men. In my eyes you play a game with everyone you meet and that is not honorable. The way you will talk about an ex that I still care about immensly as an object of your never ending sexquest makes me want to beat you to a pulp. You don't care what I have to say. I REFUSE TO GIVE UP ON A FRIEND. For this very reason I will be here until you completly decide you do not want me anymore. This day approaches every time you talk to me like a dog and not a man. I love you but you show that blood is thicker than water, and the best intentions are lost in selfish quest for fullfilment.
PART II
I broke up with what may very well be the only chace I ever had at a stable and caring girlfriend. GET READY FOR A SHITSTORM. I met her a little over 3 years ago. We shall call her Dora for this post's sake. Dora was easily a 7 on my scale. I know to others she was a 4. I don't care. She was a great person for me. She always knew how to make me happy, for the first 6 months that is. As many highschool relationships we had a lot of breaks. That is important because everytime I broke up with her. May this have been to spare her from a breakdown or because I could not emotionally comprehend where we were at the time, I don't know.
Everything went great. I wanted to spend time with her and I felt a mutual attraction from her. There came a point where I was going to break things off with her because of some personal issues with my family I was having at the time. However, as I began the conversation of going our seperate ways, she decided she wanted to tell me that she wanted me to take her virginity. I was 18 man. I didn't know what to do. In my mind I knew she was not emotionally ready for that kind of commitment or action. I told her that I didn't think I WAS READY. I told her we should take it slow and see what happens a week ago we had the difficult conversation of I am sorry this happened. This conversation would have been fine, had it not been infront of her youth pastor the same night. A week later she tells me she would like me to talk to her PASTOR father about it. I would have nothing of it. THIS IS ONE OF MY MOST COWARDLY AND SHAMEFUL MOMENTS. I told her that I would not talk to her father and that I needed time away from her. This proved to be a mistake. I lost her that night. More then I would ever fathom.
Fastforward 4months of me beging to get her back. She comes back to me and tells me this time it is it. This is my last chance. I gladly accept. However, things are different now. IT was almost like you could smell it in the air like a coming rain storm. We never had any physical contact after that. Don't get me wrong, I am not a sex driven animal, I just need to have some physical actions done (such as holding hands whenever possible cute kisses etc.) It ate away at me. Whenever I tried to talk to Dora about it it would not go the way I wanted it to. "I wish we kissed more" came out as "we never ever kiss DO YOU NOT FIND ME PRETTY DORA?" I think the world of Dora but my own insecurity cost me the greatest relationship I think I could ever have. I love her so much but due to the way I see myself I cannot see why she would even find me attractive adding to the intimancy issue I thought I had with her BUT I HAD IT WITH MY SELF.
She told me that she was moving out of state last month. Due to some bad advice and over thinking on my part I decided we would part ways. I knew it was a mistake almost immediatly but due to my nervous breakdowns becoming near daily at this point I was unable to fix the sitiuation I single hadedly caused. I want nothing more but to make her happy and if that means I have to stop beating a dead horse I WILL. I since have made it known that I want nothing but her. She has yet to relay the same feelings. Dora I love you and this distance is killing me. I am willing to man up and GO THE DISTANCE for you. Why can't you see that.
PART III
If you are looking for any sanctuary from the fright fest above it will come in the events from the past month. I recently returned to living with my parents in my home town. With my home town came the truest friend I have ever know. He is on his mission now so I don't have an issue using his real name. Maybe one day he will read this and it will give him a better understanding into the decisions I have made. Dylan Boren, has been the one true friend I have ever had. Always there for me, never to far out of reach. Put me up when I had no where else to go. Talked to me whenever I needed it. Would always go to shows with me no matter what. Most of all, THE MOST INFLUENCIAL PERSON I HAVE EVER MET. He would never let me say it, but without him I would not of made it to twenty. He doesn't know how many times I pulled myself off the floor to call him or walk to his house. Nights I would drive to see Dora and she would deny my attention so I would call him instead of driving home 50+ miles in the middle of the night. I know it sounds like I have lost Dylan. However at this time it is quite the contrary. He has saved me.
Dylan left on his mission last week. It was such a bittersweet departure for me. I knew it would happen but I never knew it would strike so close to home. Make me want for what he has so much. A clear testamony of Jesus Christ. I always said I would go on that mission. I am now in a place which makes it so I can not do this. Dylan's departure made me realize that I need to change, and I will. A dear friend gave 2 years to spread the word of god. I can at least let him know he has already touched one soul. I will miss him dearly but I hope to suprise him with my own renewed testamony on his return.
So world, as I sit here, nearly in tears writting as my soul collapses from lack of sleep and good feelings I let you know: I will be alright. With the power of god all things are possible and I know that heavenly father will have my back when no one else does. I will find a way to win back Dora and Dylan will return. I WILL STAND STEADFAST AND IMOVABLE.
First off. It is Christmas eve. I am in the same spot I was a year ago this time. It eats me from the inside out. I don't know what to do with my life nor what I should be doing. A lot of things have happend in the past year to make this one of the "wonder years." By wonder years, I mean that it is a wonder I made it through. I am nearly 20 and have nothing to show for it. I have no special skills. I find my self physically neglected. While this can be confusing I mean that I have neglected my body to the point of disrepair. I would love to report something good has happened in the past year, however that is not the case.
I moved away from my parents in Feburary. In doing so I had to tell a friend he could no longer crash with me. This was not an issue for I was quite tired of my generosity being taken as weakness. I will go to the end of the Earth for someone once they earn my respect and friendship, however, I can only take so much before I become an emotional wreck and lose control of my tounge. Fastforward through melodramatic issues with that friend. I then moved in with my grandmother. Not a big deal she has always treated me right. While living with her I managed to gain employment for 4 months at a time twice. Both employers treated me very poorly and have made it so I have a huge anxiety attack just looking for a job online. CURSE THIS WEAKNESS. I have nervous breakdowns at the drop of a hat now. My life is a downward spiral.
PART I
I hate my current "best-friend." Yes it is the same friend that pushed me to the utter brink a year ago. My need to be accepted outwaeighs my need to stand up to him and tell me that he is a selfish bum who needs to stop feeling like he is entitled to every little thing he needs. JC you have mistreated me and hurt me. I play Leauge with this man nearly every chance I get. I love the game but the very way he talks to me enrages me. I have no problem having a conversation with someone and telling them that they hurt me or that I feel mistreated. If you personally know me you know I am quite open with my feelings. But JC... I gave you a home when no one else would. I picked you up when you called me crying. You are not the strongest of men. In my eyes you play a game with everyone you meet and that is not honorable. The way you will talk about an ex that I still care about immensly as an object of your never ending sexquest makes me want to beat you to a pulp. You don't care what I have to say. I REFUSE TO GIVE UP ON A FRIEND. For this very reason I will be here until you completly decide you do not want me anymore. This day approaches every time you talk to me like a dog and not a man. I love you but you show that blood is thicker than water, and the best intentions are lost in selfish quest for fullfilment.
PART II
I broke up with what may very well be the only chace I ever had at a stable and caring girlfriend. GET READY FOR A SHITSTORM. I met her a little over 3 years ago. We shall call her Dora for this post's sake. Dora was easily a 7 on my scale. I know to others she was a 4. I don't care. She was a great person for me. She always knew how to make me happy, for the first 6 months that is. As many highschool relationships we had a lot of breaks. That is important because everytime I broke up with her. May this have been to spare her from a breakdown or because I could not emotionally comprehend where we were at the time, I don't know.
Everything went great. I wanted to spend time with her and I felt a mutual attraction from her. There came a point where I was going to break things off with her because of some personal issues with my family I was having at the time. However, as I began the conversation of going our seperate ways, she decided she wanted to tell me that she wanted me to take her virginity. I was 18 man. I didn't know what to do. In my mind I knew she was not emotionally ready for that kind of commitment or action. I told her that I didn't think I WAS READY. I told her we should take it slow and see what happens a week ago we had the difficult conversation of I am sorry this happened. This conversation would have been fine, had it not been infront of her youth pastor the same night. A week later she tells me she would like me to talk to her PASTOR father about it. I would have nothing of it. THIS IS ONE OF MY MOST COWARDLY AND SHAMEFUL MOMENTS. I told her that I would not talk to her father and that I needed time away from her. This proved to be a mistake. I lost her that night. More then I would ever fathom.
Fastforward 4months of me beging to get her back. She comes back to me and tells me this time it is it. This is my last chance. I gladly accept. However, things are different now. IT was almost like you could smell it in the air like a coming rain storm. We never had any physical contact after that. Don't get me wrong, I am not a sex driven animal, I just need to have some physical actions done (such as holding hands whenever possible cute kisses etc.) It ate away at me. Whenever I tried to talk to Dora about it it would not go the way I wanted it to. "I wish we kissed more" came out as "we never ever kiss DO YOU NOT FIND ME PRETTY DORA?" I think the world of Dora but my own insecurity cost me the greatest relationship I think I could ever have. I love her so much but due to the way I see myself I cannot see why she would even find me attractive adding to the intimancy issue I thought I had with her BUT I HAD IT WITH MY SELF.
She told me that she was moving out of state last month. Due to some bad advice and over thinking on my part I decided we would part ways. I knew it was a mistake almost immediatly but due to my nervous breakdowns becoming near daily at this point I was unable to fix the sitiuation I single hadedly caused. I want nothing more but to make her happy and if that means I have to stop beating a dead horse I WILL. I since have made it known that I want nothing but her. She has yet to relay the same feelings. Dora I love you and this distance is killing me. I am willing to man up and GO THE DISTANCE for you. Why can't you see that.
PART III
If you are looking for any sanctuary from the fright fest above it will come in the events from the past month. I recently returned to living with my parents in my home town. With my home town came the truest friend I have ever know. He is on his mission now so I don't have an issue using his real name. Maybe one day he will read this and it will give him a better understanding into the decisions I have made. Dylan Boren, has been the one true friend I have ever had. Always there for me, never to far out of reach. Put me up when I had no where else to go. Talked to me whenever I needed it. Would always go to shows with me no matter what. Most of all, THE MOST INFLUENCIAL PERSON I HAVE EVER MET. He would never let me say it, but without him I would not of made it to twenty. He doesn't know how many times I pulled myself off the floor to call him or walk to his house. Nights I would drive to see Dora and she would deny my attention so I would call him instead of driving home 50+ miles in the middle of the night. I know it sounds like I have lost Dylan. However at this time it is quite the contrary. He has saved me.
Dylan left on his mission last week. It was such a bittersweet departure for me. I knew it would happen but I never knew it would strike so close to home. Make me want for what he has so much. A clear testamony of Jesus Christ. I always said I would go on that mission. I am now in a place which makes it so I can not do this. Dylan's departure made me realize that I need to change, and I will. A dear friend gave 2 years to spread the word of god. I can at least let him know he has already touched one soul. I will miss him dearly but I hope to suprise him with my own renewed testamony on his return.
So world, as I sit here, nearly in tears writting as my soul collapses from lack of sleep and good feelings I let you know: I will be alright. With the power of god all things are possible and I know that heavenly father will have my back when no one else does. I will find a way to win back Dora and Dylan will return. I WILL STAND STEADFAST AND IMOVABLE.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Broken Ambitions
So I always had the biggest drive to sing my heart out every chance I got but when I went to tryout for Honor Choir in elementry school I was told I should never sing again... Talk about a boner kill. I still try from time to time but I know that once again my brother recieved a blessing that remained absent to me...
What do you do when you have been told your whole life that you cant do something you would love to do for an eternity? Like last year I was kicked out of my News Publication class in highschool. Sure stuff like that happens all the time but I really wanted to write for the rest of my life. I even considered going to collage for it. That is why I stoped writting this silly blog that no one reads because I lost all heart...
So am I still waiting for this world to stop hating, cant find a good reason cant find hope to believe in. So true this world is just so full of hate. Even when someone can be perfectly happy someone is just waiting ot tear them down and tell them they arn't doing anything right.
I know this is really random and shows no merrit at all but that is not the point of my words... I just feel that I lost everything dear to me in such a little time and realized that maybe everyone that calles me "Worthless" is actually right. I can't really do much in this world to show any worth but then again isn't that our world? Survival of the fittest may be blunt and one sided but it is so true. Maybe not in the strength sense of the word but just that those who are mentally and well socially fit are just going to have an easier time...
So in relation to those people around me... I don't really have any problems with anyone as long as they leave me be or befriend me. I am some what of a socialtarian. Its all I live on. Id much rather be around people then without them but there are always going to be those times where I just want the roads to be coated in the blood of those who anger me. Don't get me wrong I am not a vengeful or homicidal person. I don't want to really hurt anyone at all but sometimes I feel like people don't understand what they do to others and how much pain they can really cause...
Because I cannot even remember what I started this post with I am just going to end it with some lyrics from a great song...
Everybody's got their problems (problems).
Everbody says the same thing to you.
It's just a matter of how you solve them (solve them),
And knowing how to change the things you've been through.
I feel I've come to realize
How fast life can be compromised.
Step back to see what's going on.
I can't believe this happened to you...
This happened to you...
What do you do when you have been told your whole life that you cant do something you would love to do for an eternity? Like last year I was kicked out of my News Publication class in highschool. Sure stuff like that happens all the time but I really wanted to write for the rest of my life. I even considered going to collage for it. That is why I stoped writting this silly blog that no one reads because I lost all heart...
So am I still waiting for this world to stop hating, cant find a good reason cant find hope to believe in. So true this world is just so full of hate. Even when someone can be perfectly happy someone is just waiting ot tear them down and tell them they arn't doing anything right.
I know this is really random and shows no merrit at all but that is not the point of my words... I just feel that I lost everything dear to me in such a little time and realized that maybe everyone that calles me "Worthless" is actually right. I can't really do much in this world to show any worth but then again isn't that our world? Survival of the fittest may be blunt and one sided but it is so true. Maybe not in the strength sense of the word but just that those who are mentally and well socially fit are just going to have an easier time...
So in relation to those people around me... I don't really have any problems with anyone as long as they leave me be or befriend me. I am some what of a socialtarian. Its all I live on. Id much rather be around people then without them but there are always going to be those times where I just want the roads to be coated in the blood of those who anger me. Don't get me wrong I am not a vengeful or homicidal person. I don't want to really hurt anyone at all but sometimes I feel like people don't understand what they do to others and how much pain they can really cause...
Because I cannot even remember what I started this post with I am just going to end it with some lyrics from a great song...
Everybody's got their problems (problems).
Everbody says the same thing to you.
It's just a matter of how you solve them (solve them),
And knowing how to change the things you've been through.
I feel I've come to realize
How fast life can be compromised.
Step back to see what's going on.
I can't believe this happened to you...
This happened to you...
With you....
So the other day I was hanging out with some of the best guys I have ever met and I had the facade of the strongest built up to live up to the reputation of a year past... Then a song came on and it rocked me to my very heart... If we broke up on good terms why do I miss you so much and always wish we were together and know that my life would be so much better with you but now your out of my life... I wish you were still here. Everything that I ever did with you was out of love and I meant every word and action... I remember every little thing that ever happened between us. My Sophmore year changed my life forever and so did you...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8z-qP34-1Y
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8z-qP34-1Y
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Me and the Bro's
So when I make it big and I am in an interview I know how I will answer "what was the weirdest show ever," question. It was most deffinatly the Colleen Cloudus show of six haha. It was a good time and we just played good enough to earn the 50$. AKA we performed like shit again. We never sound good outside of practice. I am not down at all though I feel like I had fun and thats all that matters. Talia is my cute little angel always there to pick me up and thats all I need. I have a new saying... "Seconds from the end, what's it going to be? Pull the trigger bitch." Just kidding. Not with HER in my life, It's "No Fear." :D
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
SLfuckingC
So been talking about a road trip down to play a show in SLC. That would be fun but we need to focus on getting our setlist expanded before then. I love the guys in my band but they don't show the same drive I need them to. Brandon is my one hope but we don't see eye to eye on a lot of things but damn do we make sweet music.
Speaking of sweet things. My girlfriend is beyond the best thing that has ever happened to me. She has no idea how alive she makes me feel. I don't know haha one day I go from being a manwhore to not ever wanting to look at another girl again. Funny how it works :D. We were meant to be here ya know. She is the cutest thing she makes my day every day and she can brighten my day just when she says bye. :D
Song of the day
Song of the day; Good Bye Were Falling Fast by: Aiden
Your pretty face disguised
In a veil of fear(veil of fear)
Drip with tears
As I gave you one last
Kiss before the fall (before the fall)
Hold my hand you're so beautiful
Let's escape from this life and end it all
On three we're jumping from this ledge
This buildings tall
I'm sure we'll wake up dead
But I still love her
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we're falling fast
But I'll live forever
Say goodbye
say goodbye
A picture perfect attempt at
A quick and painless death
Came and meant
Something so much more
Than all the rest (than all the rest)
Hold my hand and don't forget to breathe
There's nothing left for you
There's nothing left to leave
On three we're jumping from this ledge
This buildings tall
I'm sure we'll wake up dead
But I still love her
Say goodbye
say goodbye
Yeah we're falling fast
I'll live forever
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we'll make it last
With these moments we hold dear
(inside my heart)
And the seconds we have left
(inside my heart)
I know you're here inside my heart [2x]
Hold your hand with mine
In this picture perfect light
There's one last chance for us
Tonight
I hold your hand with mine
So everything is fine
So say goodbye now say goodbye
Tonight
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we're falling fast
But I'll live forever
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we'll make it last
But I'll live forever
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we're falling fast
I'll live forever
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
She is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Your pretty face disguised
In a veil of fear(veil of fear)
Drip with tears
As I gave you one last
Kiss before the fall (before the fall)
Hold my hand you're so beautiful
Let's escape from this life and end it all
On three we're jumping from this ledge
This buildings tall
I'm sure we'll wake up dead
But I still love her
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we're falling fast
But I'll live forever
Say goodbye
say goodbye
A picture perfect attempt at
A quick and painless death
Came and meant
Something so much more
Than all the rest (than all the rest)
Hold my hand and don't forget to breathe
There's nothing left for you
There's nothing left to leave
On three we're jumping from this ledge
This buildings tall
I'm sure we'll wake up dead
But I still love her
Say goodbye
say goodbye
Yeah we're falling fast
I'll live forever
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we'll make it last
With these moments we hold dear
(inside my heart)
And the seconds we have left
(inside my heart)
I know you're here inside my heart [2x]
Hold your hand with mine
In this picture perfect light
There's one last chance for us
Tonight
I hold your hand with mine
So everything is fine
So say goodbye now say goodbye
Tonight
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we're falling fast
But I'll live forever
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we'll make it last
But I'll live forever
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Yeah we're falling fast
I'll live forever
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
She is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
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