There is this little bug that I have always had and I can not think of a single day that I have gone without it. Nothing about highschool is fair. Having a girlfriend you love torn from you because a "friend" capatalizes on a fight with her, Being overlooked in a sport. Not being noticed by the girls you actually like but haveing an uncanny ability to have three girls instantly in love with you at once. I hate it. I hate every second of my womanizing existance. I hate how I can't bring my selft to hurt a girl that longs to be with me so bad. I haven't the courage to tell them there is someone else. I don't have the heart to hurt d again. I don't have the mental capacity or temperment to put up with s's shit anymore nor do I wish too. I don't have the labeto to give w, what she wants and frankly I DON'T WANT TO FUCK YOU.
It makes me wish it was freshmen year again. I was still so pure, so full of innocent "puppy love." Those were the days eh? Just kicking it with the blonde beauty. Hell we only kissed a few times but I would trade every fucking fuck just to go back and be with her again even if it ended the same exact fucked up way. Hell is a teenage girl. How ironic that that song is by a band named FRESHMEN YEAR. Everybody says that their senior year was supposed to be the shit. Horse shit. I hate seeing every girl I ever had any connection with at all float away on the wings of happiness when I am stuck in the same place as always typing my heart out about my past loves and losses.
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